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Sumalangit nawa ang kaluluwa ng mga biktima ng patayang naganap sa Maguindanao.

Death

“There is no fair in life and death. If it were, no good men would die young.”~

Said the Blueman on “Five people you meet in heaven by Mitch Albom”

I was just 11 years old when my brother died at 3am of August 14, 1995 at the hospital and was buried the same day at 3pm. He was just 8 years old. He died with a “rare kind of meningitis” (written on his death certificate)…. I’m sorry I couldn’t tell the details.

I usually celebrate his birthday or death anniversary through writing about him. He was supposed to be 21 years old last April 13 and today is his 13^th death anniversary.

His death was one of the painful and traumatic events in our lives and it was the fight we gave up. We just lift it up to God especially those who have wronged us. If “they” have put the word “probably” on the cause of his death on his death certificate, what would you think? Would you just give in to the word “probably”? Not so sure of what happened to my brother? Just guessing?

Some fight must be given up, lift it up to the Lord and accept it, in the end He will be the one who would judge us. Even the cases where dismissed here on earth and there’s no such thing as “big support group” for the “negligent” cases for the gods in white coat, I think God would just want us to go on and live our lives to the fullest.

Probably in the near future the justice system in our land would change and the victims would probably achieve their triumphs. Maybe in the near future we would produce a number of “legible” forensic pathologist and a special institution or advanced laboratory for this kind of science to help solve the “unsolved cases”.

Sa TV napapanuod kong “circus” parin ang mga cases ng victims (pinatay si ganito hindi alam kung paano, naputol ang ulo ng sangol, ni reject ang organs, may naiwan na clamp sa katawan or gasa…). but HOPEFULLY we the countrymen will achieve somehow the changes we want to partake. Somehow maybe (again) in the future we will have a better health care system that would cater even the less privileged fellows.

Until now, once in a while I would cry and think “what if he did not die, what would be our life? Maybe we already had a band that would entertain our relatives every reunion… Maybe we would go to a mall and have some fun. Maybe we would watch band concerts, movies, plays and etc together. Maybe he was also in our youth org just like our youngest sibling. My youngest brother couldn’t remember that his kuya died… he was just a toddler that time.

I guess God has His own reasons why He took our brother…

My parents named him Mark Ernest and nicked name as "Toto"...

sariwain

May you rest in peace... Paalam po...
Maraming salamat...

Hindi ko maalala kung saang kuha itong larawan pero sa tingin ko sa Manila ito (sa mga pahanong canceled ang mga flights)... Suot ng tiyahin ko ang damit na may larawan ng dating Pangulong Corazon C. Aquino. Bigay sa kanya ng isa ko pang tiyahin na pumunta sa Malacanang na nagdala ng pagkain para sa mga sundalo... at! kasama ang Mama ko (umakyat sa gate... sa panahong di makalabas ang mga tao sa Malacanang)... Habang ang Papa ko naman ay nasa probinsya ng Capiz- Roxas City nakikibaka mairaos ang snap election bilang chairman ng Namfrel sa barangay namin..

ehem... iba talaga ang impluwensya ng pamilya...

*first part palang po itong tribute ko, mejo naghukay ng baul mahanap ang mga pictures... sa ngayon, ang Tiyahin kong naka suot ng t-shirt ay nagsisilbi bilang konsehal sa barangay namin sa probinsya. sa tingin ko sinusundan nya ang yapak ng yumaong pangulo sa kanyang mumunting paraan... malinis at marangal...

Absence

I have the tendency of being a “turtle”… sometimes I lurk and sometimes I make my self present in everything, social gathering, get together, internet matters and etc. Some have noticed I am not roaming around the cyber space again and my absence made them sort of worried… I am thankful and feel blessed having those people… (andrama) ^_^

In God’s grace I’m getting better and hoping to cope up with everything… I am hopeful that I will be back on the circulation sooner! With the help of my family, close friends and the magic of the science of medicine. I feel so blessed that I’m on my way to the journey I was looking (searching) for ages to appreciate the beauty of this complicated and challenging world.

I think I was really born to visit different hospitals from time to time. When I was a child I can’t count how many times I was admitted and treated with different illness with lots of needles and antibiotics… (most of it I cant remember)… from acute laryngotracheobronchitis, tonsillitis (that was suspected leading to rheumatic heart that’s why I have to be injected every month with a painful needles and sticky fluid to prevent it!!!), gastritis, gastroenteritis, allergic rhinitis, allergies (etc), amoebiasis, anemia, astigmatism with near-sightedness, bitten by a dog, bitten by a cat. whew! These are just few of the tragedies I’ve gone through… and I am still alive! Glad I found out what I have right now is neither fatal nor contagious… amen!

As what they’ve said “No pain no gain”… but I lose weight and did not gain!!! Hehe… good thing!

I guess I’m not immune being on earth.. just kidding.. ^_^ I might be healthy living on Mars… Just this month I got a flu vaccine (thanks to my mom who injected me), just in case…you know, the immunity thing…

Have a wonderful life everyone! ^_^